Numb.

In my state of complacency, music has always been able to speak to me where noone or nothing else is able. Seeps into my pores, enables me to think, feel, move. There is music playing and I can't even feel it. I am at my numbest.

"We're at war, we live like this... " -Paramore

Currently listening : Riot! By Paramore Release date: By 2007-06-12

Tell me, are you free?

I thought I was until I saw that I wasn't, saw that my mental was imprisoned, my conviction wasn't lined up with His mission, couldn't shake the chains from my life none, couldn't push it from my mind none, was like clingy, spandex sin, my dermis couldn't escape from. Came into this realm blindly never expecting to fly solo, captured by my mental, distress brought me down so low. Ignorant to possibilities of escape but I see my freedom in the air, forgetting that I've always had it there...

Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom...

Tell me, are you free?
Are you free?
It could be time for us to break free...

...and what does it look like, feel like? It looks like not being able to sleep at night and instead of entertaining destructive thoughts, channeling those feelings through a creative form of expressing and placing them at His feet.

He makes all things new... not all at once, of course. I used to stare out of my window wishing I could fall from it. No longer do I stare, brokenhearted, that chapter is over. It's a testimony for me to say, that chapter has ended. I never thought I could be free, I could never imagine me... until recently.

"When the world has fallen out from under me, I'll be found in you, still standing.
Every fear and accusation under my feet when time and space are through, I'll be found in You. You make all things new..." -Shadow Feet, Brooke Fraser

And may I add, I'll be found in you, Jesus." Where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. Holla.

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